train car, bokeh, bare feet.

24 hours ago, i was a content passenger on a 1924 train!
we left from chattanooga, had a wonderful served dinner on the way to chickamauga, strolled around the station at chickamauga, and then rode back. it was a long ride! it was soooo great!

there's something about trains that is really magical to me. i live right next to the tracks and when i hear it it always sounds like something different. sometimes it sounds like an orchestra warming up. sometimes a harmonica. sometimes playful. sometimes urgent.
in college, i would climb parked trains and read books or write under the yellow streetlights.
i have chased the train a few times, but those are all longer stories...

and so the wonderful adam took me on a train date!

our waiters had bowties, i got my first foot massage, i took a vast amount of out-of-focus photos to emphasize bokeh (which makes me feel cheerful and makes my mind feel in focus--sounds crazy, but it is true).
i could ride a train every day. i want to ride a train every day.

i love the photos from this date because, quite frankly, they are sentimental.
i am a sentimental girl! who knew?




















sherlock holmes was on my mind a lot on this trip (though i know he rode in hansoms, being on a train had a very sherlock-mood to it).

trains trains trains! if only i could time travel and visit the 1920s for a week...

showing up matters.

just recently i was told that
"eighty percent of success is showing up."
showing up matters.
(thank you blake).

life is about turning corners.
i used to walk all over downtown cleveland at night and pretend i was the only human in town, maybe even the world. and with every corner i turned, i would get uncontrollably excited about what i might run into. i mean, the unknown is heavy with possibilities! and i visualized the most fantastic things awaiting me around the corner.

my mind is a derailed train, every day.
my thoughts jump and switch tracks every few seconds. i am aware and in-tune.
today i saw all the roads i can take in my life. i mean, i can do anything! i am not in the least bit tied down. i can stay. i can go. i can go anywhere. and i can do anything if i work hard enough.
if i show up.

so i'm showing up.





thought: i keep catching myself starting to take life too seriously. i don't want to buy a house, get a new car, and lose myself in this american dream of debt and a fenced in yard. but it's almost contagious! my heart, or something inside of my chest, feels pulled towards things that involve intuition, my feet moving, and wide open spaces.

it's scary because people waste their lives. that is a real thing.
don't waste your life.

pspp release party

last week i flew to charlotte, nc and cigi (of the Flock Apparel) and i had a photo release party for the models who participated in the Public Photo Shoot Project.
It was sooo cool! We had a big lightbox wall and all the photos printed and mounted. and then we had 5x7's mounted on cardboard frames and stamped with the "public photo shoot project" for sale.
very cool. very fun. lovely times!

i liked it. i like niche (the boutique it was at). i like cigi. i like people and their faces. i like blake's hair. i like the russian sisters. i like christmas trees. i like flying in airplanes (it is so close to impossible for me to stay awake on airplanes. i pass out as soon as i buckle my seatbelt). i like charlotte. i like bojangles cajun filet biscuits. i like stamps! i like cardboard. i like the song "monkey gone to heaven" by the pixies.
etc. etc.



the wall of photos!





this is what i look like in a mirror.













this man has the most beautiful freckles...



















&here are some of the actual photos. ones of/for the models. who were all real people. and incredible people. it was awesome to work with all of them!
















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my extended family recently had a get together in delaware and i was unable to join.
so my brother picture texted this to me with the caption "insert sara here"
i won't lie- it made me laugh haaaaaard.

i like my brother so much that i think i'll move to germany with him.
yeah...sounds good.